Ze and I have been friends for years. Years by years flew passed us before we could realize it. It's a funny thing when I look back; arguments, cold war, teasing, and really ridiculous things happened between us. It's a great thing that we used to be pure friends with no flirtatious intentions.
When he first told me he loves me, I told him that 'love' cannot be said so simply. The word love has a really strong meaning to it. He tried to stop speaking those words ever since then however, many times we uttered it in tears and heartbreaks due to my fear of broken relationships.
I was afraid of being close to someone after having a terrible experience with a boy my friends would call 'jerk' which when I think about it now, he's not really a jerk. Just pure childishness and very much inconsiderate. I fought very hard against my own feelings towards Ze. The closer my heart is to his, the further my feet would flee. At some point of time, I couldn't take it anymore.
"Let's not see each other anymore. Let's not talk to each other anymore," I said them in a stern voice. He didn't agree, my heart didn't agree but the rest of my body wants to get away from him. I don't know when but there was once when he said it in tears and eyes as red as a ruby... "I love you okay?". That was when I wanted to stop running away.
Now, I would say that sentence whenever he does or say something that makes my heart flutter. I don't want to say them out so easily but... his actions are just so sweet that it warms the core of my body and stops my breathing just so that my mouth would open up and say... "I love you,". He's really a caring little zebra. There are many things that he has done for me that if I did not control myself, I would have cried a river.
"I love you."
"I love you most."
"I love you more!"
"But I love you most."
"Hey you cheater. How can you used the word most before more! I love you more than most!"
This war will never end. Though I will never give up, I know that he is always the winner. There is no way I can love as much as he does and I always know that he loves me... most. I can't ask for anything more, I am already thankful to have someone that loves me much more than I am able to. But as far as the verbal love war is concerned, I will never give up. Hey, I have to at least win verbally right?
Currently feeling: sleepy




